Different, odd, gravitationally challenged...these are all things I get called. Honestly to me they sound more like easy words for she is damn straight wierd as hell. Yes, it's true I am different. To be completely honest we are all different, right? Although most blend, they try to be like others just so that they won't stand out and make a fool of themselves, just so people won't say they are different, wierd or odd. I know this...I was this. For 18 years I lived in a small town and if you grew up in one you know exactly what I mean. No one tries to be different because they get scolded and made fun of for being so. Everyone cares if you embarrass yourself because you will be the talk of the town for the next month. And if you don't play sports or attend the "Friday Night Football" games then you are an outcast, someone that nobody wants to be or be friends with. Now don't get me wrong, small towns aren't all bad. They do have some great features like you know everyone so you are never lost and there is always someone there to help you. Also as long as you look, breathe, smell and basically base your whole life around the most perfect person in the world, which inevitably to me is fiction, then you are accepted as a person.
"My Child is...a Free Spirit" is something my mother said to one of her coworkers one day. You see everybody here has a religion and if you don't have a religion well then you are a "bad child." So as my mother could only explain it in the easiest and most polite way she said that. A free spirit, I looked up the definition to this word and once I got past all the definitons of TV shows and movie characters I came upon a definition saying "a person who is a nonconformist." Nonconformist...nonconformist?....nonconformist! Yeah this sounds about right I said to myself because I don't conform to the religions that people put out there. However it is not right because I do conform to some of it which are some of the morals but that is not complete conformity. So am I a half-conformist? It this possible? Am I a half free-spirit...for now I couldn't tell you but maybe one day I will be able to. Honestly I am just happy to be me, fully and honestly me :)
p.s. what I write in this blog will not have one plot line, there will not just be one theme but many because thats the kind of person I am, I am many...this may not be the most exciting blog so read it, don't read it I don't care cause it's just me...beautiful, great, gravitationally challenged!!
